minea, sombreros y sól

24/07/2012

the best of méxico

...aka things that I miss the most;

...my city...

...my friends..

...the amazing beaches...

...learning stuff about myself I thought were forever gone...

(and changing the stuff I want to shift away)

...eating absolutely deliciousssssss food...

...partying 'till the sun starts to shine...

...going to school (laugh all you want :p)

...learning about a new culture, a new way of life...

(=getting new eyes)

"The only real voyage of discovery
consists not of seeking new landscapes,
but having new eyes."
-Michael Proust

***

girl, tell me how you feeling,

what's your fantasy,

I see us on a beach down in México

you can put your feet up,

be my señorita,

we ain't gonna rush, just take it slow...
- B.O.B

01/06/2012

...that maybe time will never stop, that we could just stay in some moments forever.

...that we could just let things be and learn and love and not having to worry about anything (well the best part is when you learn to not worry by yourself)

...that life could be just as I want it to be, where I want it to be and who I want it to be with

...that this unforgettable time will never fade away and I will never forget the people I was turned into.

Everyday I wish I could stay longer, and everyday I remember that everything happens for a reason...

And that I can make my own desicions and come back whenever I want and live as I want.

I don't want to lose everything I've gained and learned. It's way too important to me.

These moments, these people, these feelings are all I've ever wanted.

These aren't my last words, although time is running out. The best part of everything I've been through is knowing that the only person who got me through this was ME. I 've been through fights, namecalling, not fitting in, crying, feeling hopeless, and desperate, trying to make things work and want to give up when they don't... but all this brought me to be strong, optimistic, to throw the stress away somewhere outside of my head, to not worry about things before they happen, and learn - if I can solve it, why worry?, and if I can't, why bother feeling sad?

Minea in México is the first time I stopped being AFRAID of doing stuff. I was afraid of having problems with people and getting into fights and them not liking me. But now, what does it matter? I know who I am and I know where I've been, you know, and I think that's all that matters in this moment.

I know what I want to do in one year. Where I wanna be. And the only person who can make this possible is me. Thank you México for showing it to me : )

Hugs&Kisses,

Minea xox

estar contigo es como tocar el cielo con las manos,

como sólo un primer día en verano, como en un cuento...

yo siento que tu compañía es el mejor regalo que me dio la vida,
la fuerza que me empuja a seguir adelante...
de todo lo que tengo es lo más importante
estar contigo es como un sueño de que no quiero despertar
si abro los ojos y no estás

vivir contigo es mi deseo, es todo lo que quiero hacer

porque a tu lado puedo ser sólo yo misma...

11/05/2012

solamente quiero que seas tú

‎"A year has (almost) passed and now we stand on the brink, of returning to a world where we are surrounded by the paradox of everything and yet nothing being the same.

In a couple of weeks we will reluctantly give our hugs and, fighting the tears,we will say goodbye to people who were once just names on a sheet of paper to return to people that we hugged and fought tears to say goodbye to before we ever left.
We will leave our best friends to return to our best friends.
We will go back to the places we came from, and go back to the same things we did last summer and every summer before.
We will come into town on that same familiar road, and even though it has been months, it will seem like only yesterday.
As you walk into your old bedroom, every emotion will pass through you as you reflect on the way your life has changed and the person you have become.
You suddenly realize that the things that were most important to you a year ago don't seem to matter so much anymore, and the things you hold highest now, no one at home will completely understand.
Who will you call first?
What will you do your first weekend home with your friends?
Where are you going to work?
Who will be at the party Saturday night?
What has everyone been up to in the past few months?
Who from school will you keep in touch with?
How long before you actually start missing people barging in without calling or knocking?
Then you start to realize how much things have changed, and you realize the hardest part of being an exchange student is balancing the two(/three) completely different worlds you now live in, trying desperately to hold on to everything all the while trying to figure out what you have to leave behind.
We now know the meaning of true friendship.
We know who we have kept in touch with over the past year and who we hold dearest to our hearts.
We've left our worlds to deal with the real world.
We've had our hearts broken, we've fallen in love, we've helped our best friends overcome eating disorders, depression, stress, and death. We've lit candles at the grotto and we've stayed up all night on the phone just to talk to a friend in need.
There have been times when we've felt so helpless being hours away from home when we know our families or friends needed us the most, and there are times when we know we have made a difference.
Just weeks from now we will leave :(
Just weeks from now we take down our pictures, and pack up our clothes.
No more going next door to do nothing for hours on end. We will leave our friends whose random e-mails and phone calls will bring us to laughter and tears this summer, and hopefully years to come.
We will take our memories and dreams and put them away for now, saving them for our return to this world.
Just weeks from now we will arrive.
Just weeks from now we will unpack our bags and have dinner with our families. We will drive over to our best friend's house and do nothing for hours on end.
We will return to the same friends whose random emails and phone calls have brought us to laughter and tears over the year.
We will unpack old dreams and memories that have been put away for the past year.
In just weeks we will dig deep inside to find the strength and conviction to adjust to change and still keep each other close.
And somehow, in some way, we will find our place between these two worlds.
In just weeks.
Are you ready?"

...NO I AM NOT FUCKING READY

I NEED MORE TIME MORE PEOPLE MORE EXPERIENCES

I NEED THIS PLACE I NEED THIS EXPERIENCE

I NEED THIS HAPPINESS

OH MY FUCKING GOD............

...

...
fuck it, let's just enjoy what we have !!

(please notice the beer in my hand hahahahah)

04/05/2012

8,5 months

I can't believe I am running out of time. 2 months, 8 weeks, too little days.. What has my year been full of so far??

...other exchange students..

...going to school (yayy)...

...doing family stuff...

...changing myself...

...travelling/experiencing new things...

...parties...

...and so, so much more. I think leaving here will be the biggest heartbreak of my life :( I DON'T WANT TO GOOOOOOOOO I'm loving it way too much, everybody I meet, everything I do, eat, experience, try, everything changes the person I am for the best. It sucks to even think is such a little time I hve to leave it all behind...

...the good thing is it won't be for a long time ;)

todo cambió cuando te vi

de blanco y negro a color me converí

y fue tan facil quererte tanto

algo que no imaginaba

fue entrergarte mi amor en una mirada..

todo cambió dentro de mí,

el universo escribió que fueras para mí

ciegamente paso, y todo tuyo ya soy

antes que pase más tiempo contigo mi amor,

tengo que decir que eres el amor de mi vida,

antes que te ame más, escucha por favor,

déjame decir que todo te di..

y no hay cómo explicar para menos si no estás,

simplementi así lo senti cuando te ví...

11/03/2012

PICSPAm

I might be crazy, but I thought it would be fun to try this ! All this is with the theme of my past 7 months in México, obviously. (Or well I tried my best..) Here goes !

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts.

1. I don't have that piercing anymore :(
2. I am currently at Tuxtla Gutierrez at my hostsister Pamela's house, it's 8.30 am and everybody else is sleeping
3. I love my new hostfamily - my mom is really fun, my dad is crazy, my hostsisters are awesome and I've met a bunch of aunts, cousins, uncles and who knows what
4. Eversince I became a redhead people recognize me even easier than before..
5. which I thought was impossible since there aren't many tall redheads living anywhere near
6. Yesterday we went 7 people (me, my mom, my two sisters, two friends & Pamela's boyfriend) in a 5 people car, so naturally someone had to go on top of others, and they chose me
7. It was the strangest feeling ever since I've lived so many years being always "the biggest" and now I was.. normal?
8. that's all thanks to the weight I've lost here
9. ...who the fuck loses weight with all this Mexican food???
10. I love Chiapas (the state I'm in right now, it's next to Oaxaca)
12. and in general getting to know more of México
13. Right now, all I can think about is the autumn of 2013 when I am supposed to enter the UMAR in Puerto Ángel
14. my life should be: study, party, beach
15. i'm in loveeeee ♥ (with the thought of that future ofc !)

Day 02 - A picture of you and someone you've been close to for a long time.

I don't have many people like that hehehh.. so I chose my sisters.

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.

Day 04 - A picture of favorite missed memory.

I learned not to miss memories! But this was a happy moment.

Day 05 - A picture of you and the person you've had the best memories with.

Day 06 - A picture of someone you’d love to trade places with for a day.

Nobody =) I'm perfectly happy being who I am, everyday of my life.

Day 07 - A picture of you and someone you'd be lost without .

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh.

Everytime at class..

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.

If you know what I mean =)

Day 10 - A picture of your favorite sport or favorite athlete.

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate.

Day 12 - A picture of something you love.

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist.

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.

I can't really explain this.. go to Puerto Escondido and you will get it too.

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.

The weight you lose doesn't shake off your thoughts, as in it is pretty hard to change your way of seeing yourself, no matter how much you weigh. But this really isn't a problem, I haven't had confidence problems in ages, but would feel pretty stupid writing "oh I don't have ANY insecurities!!"

Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little.