here's the situation, i've been to every nation

I should probably post stuff more often here :--D but lately all kinds of stuff's been happening and I just haven't really felt like writing about it. I sometimes feel like I am sleeping and my life passes by my eyes, like I may catch myself wandering around my school's hallways without looking anywhere and just... walking. But it's kinda cool in some way :D sleepwalking. Nice.

Anyway, yeah, SCHOOL's my main problem right now. Or not school, but my motivation, which... well, I have _none_ of. I don't know what happened!! When I started high school I was superexcited, I met some really awesome people and laughed all day everyday. In Autumn I felt like I was 100% accepted and liked and it felt really good. Now, I don't think I'm not liked or unwanted on whatever, but I'm most definitely not as excited about school anymore as I once was. :p plus I quit football. I feel kinda sad 'cause I would've wanted to continue, but the game season starts pretty soon and I am definitely not ready, I don't master the moves and basically I suck so bad that the thought of going into rehersals gave me more anxiety than anything else... Although I liked the fact that it gave me more muscle & stamina and stuff, well, I don't think it's the best way to motivate myself to continue a sport...

Plus it definitely felt weird that everyone else was around 20 and up. Not the age difference, that's ok, but the fact that they were all... Finnish. I know it sounds weird, but lately I've really, and I mean really been noticing how I don't belong here, this culture is so far away from my lifestyle, the values and thoughts are something I cannot understand and the amount of alcohol people need to reach a level of accepting themselves is... fine for them, but not for me. I just don't feel at home here. I am definitely more Italian than Finnish and I hate it when something happens or I get into an argument to listen those never-ending accusations. "How can you be so mad? Chill!" "Honestly, you need to calm down, nothing's happened." "Dude chill, don't be so mad!" GAHAAHHHH just because I react to things with emotions doesn't mean I'm mad!! THAT's the easiest way of making me mad. I read somewhere that a bit like transgendered people, bilingual kids end up "choosing" which language and culture they feel is their "one and actual" way of life. And I've felt for a long long time now that this is not my home and one and actual way of living... well, I just have to be here for 5½ months, then I'm off to Mexico and in two years when I finish high school I'm off to explore the world. I need new languages, cultures, people, everything. My worst fear is being stuck here for the rest of my life.

:) oh well. It happens. Anyway, I realized I never made a post about Hong Kong!!! So here goes, I hope you like travel photos as much as I do...

the skyscrapers reached... well, the sky!!

The view at Victoria Peak was amazing... reminded me of Marseille (= ♥♥)

LOOK at the city view!!!!

there's the essence of bad and good.. and vice versa :)
we went to see a huge Buddha...
...with these!!
that's me (hahaha the climate ruined my hair :D:d)
me & my sister Sofia ♥
I dipped my toes into the Pacific Ocean ♥ felt incredible

Hong Kong was absolutely AMAZING, and it was a great last trip before México, since I doubt I'll go anywhere before I leave in August... after all, summer's my last chance to be with my friends & family :) can't believe it though - summer '09 India, summer '10 Interrail, autumn '10 Rome, spring '11 Hong Kong & '11-'12 México :) gotta love it.

in all of time

I know these memes are supposed to be daily, but after today I reeeeeally feel like writing this right now, so here goes !

Day 1: Introduce yourself
Well, that's easy.. uhm, my name is Minea, I am 16, I study in high school and I play american football weekly. But that's not quite enough, is it? As a person I am optimistic and carefree andand I'm having problems summing myself up to a few words :D I guess there's really no point of starting to explain my whole personality right here, so I guess I'll just say that find out if interested !
Day 02 - Your first love
See that's the thing, I don't think I've never been in love, or actually I don't want to consider anything from my past to be even close to "love". So the touching, heart-stealing, stomache-aching love is still yet to come. But it's OK, there's no rush.
Day 03 - Your parents
My mom is Finnish and my dad is Italian, and they both have a hard time understanding what it means to let a child grow up. I am the youngest so I guess they always see me as their littlest girl. In one hand, it's good - I can do basically anything I want, but I've gotta pay the price of being sometimes treated like a little baby of 5 and not a premature almost-adult-whatever kind of girl.
Day 04 – What you ate today
Bread. For breakfast and supper. Hmm, didn't even realize.
Day 05 – Your definition of love
:D uhm I don't think a feeling that strong can be defined in any specific way. "You don't spell it, you feel it", I guess.
Day 06 – Your dreams
Mexico. That's all I want.
Day 07 – Your best friend
See that's the thing, I don't have a best friend! There are people I love spending time with and party with them and talk with them and giggle with them, but not many people come closer. I have people I've known for a long time and they know me in more ways, but since I'm still learning who I am, letting other people inside my life in the most intimate of ways is harder. So I guess "my best friend" is a flexible concept for me.
Day 08 – A moment

(violaaa ♥)

Day 09 – Your beliefs
Hmm. I like to believe in the goodness of people.
Day 10 – Your siblings

Day 11 – What you wore today

Day 12 – What’s in your bag
Everything incredibly random, lip balm that I've worn out, pens that won't work, notes we've passed during classes, junk from my pencil sharpener, books, notebooks, gum... I wouldn't be surprised to find a used toothbrush or something from there one day...
Day 13 – This week
(sources)
Day 14 – Somewhere you’ve always wanted to go

barcelona, spain

indonesia

brazil

mexico

Day 15 – Your day
Day 16 – Your favourite movies


Day 17 – Your favorite memory
Ohhh but there are so many of them !
Day 18 – Your favorite birthday
Haha, I've loved absolutely all of them.
Day 20 – This monthDay 21 – Another momentDay 24 – Something that makes you cryThis one's too hard to explain. India 2009, my first... whatever it was and... oh gosh.

Day 25 – A firstfirst time on a cruise with no parents !

Day 26 - Your fears
Day 27 – Your favorite place

rome = home

Day 28 – Something that you miss
Day 29 – Your aspirations
Mexico. That's all I need.
Day 30 – One last moment

light up, light up
as if you have a choice
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(image sources i do not own)

you're on the road, but you've got no destination

I've been dreaming of bodymods and changing my looks for ages. I've dreamt of red hair eversince I was... oh my gosh, I don't know, 12, and on top of that I've always wanted piercings, tattoos, new clothes, new hairstyles, new everything... I hate being stuck to one singe look for ages. When I was about 13, I never bought new clothes because I was sure that spending money on clothes, make up and stuff was the stupidest thing ever and I was "above" all that. So as far as my pre-teen years went, I pretty much looked the same - shortish brown hair, no make up, same old clothes. I was ashamed of my body and tried to hide it into boy hoodies and big pants, but I was always a bit jealous for the girls who had long hair, cute clothes, beuty and most of all, the confidence to pull their looks off, no matter what anyone else said. So, as I got my life and myself a bit more sorted out, in around the age 14-15 I started to make myself look more like who I felt I was inside. And now that I know that in 6 months I'll be gone for a whole year, I have so much more courage to do all the stuff I've been to afraid to do beofre.

First thing I did: sidecut. Seeing people with a sidecut on one side and long whisps on the other made me feel really envious and jealous - god how I craaaaved for one!! So last January I made one dream true (it wasn't so hard after all - the only one who made a big fuss about it was _myself) - and cut it. I remember, I was listening to music, it was around midnight in a Tuesday night and it just hit me. Now's the time. So, I went to the bathroom, cut my hair short on the right side of my head and made it shorter with my Dad's hair machine.. thing. I was so nervous I couldn't sleep for the rest of the night :D when I got to school I felt amazing, my friends were supersupportive and I felt really special. I'd done it, I'd beaten my old fears, the old version of me, and here I was, proud and happy and confident me.




That was one thing now - but it wasn't enough. A few days later I left for our school's cruise (best time ever, I swear) and I got talking to one girl about piercings, and she said she could do one for me. Oh man, I don't need to mention the fuss that went on the school that she did a labret for me - in the bathroom. Cliché, I know, but dude it didn't even get infected!! I am the luckiest of all lucky girls, the chances of a home-made piercing not getting infected is about one over ten gazillion millions (or that's what they told me..) But oh, whatever! I love it, although I've already lost two of them, but oh well. It's a small price I gotta pay for looking this good, ahahaa!




I changed my style too, but oh well, explaining that would be way too complicated! The next thing I'm planning is getting a tattoo. I'm thinking that getting a cheap tattoo (cheap tattoos?) in Mexico wouldn't be a bad thing at all... I'd also like to dye my hair read (I've been dreaming about it eversince I was friggin 12 years old man!). I mean, just look at readheads. LOOK at them.




I can't explain why I have a thing for redheads (my dad always says I got it from him but........). I guess it's just one of those things you can't really explain. But there's no hurry. I'll get there. Right now I'm too in love with my natural hair which gets blonder, darker, curlier, straighter and everything inbetween whenever it wants, so... we'll see! After all, what's the rush?

Eversince... I don't even know how long, I've been longing for these tattoos, or something like them (not in the same spots, and I have a few that I can't really find good pictures of, but I hope you get the idea!). Just waiting for Mexico to come and life to begin with ink on my skin... Hrr, even the idea gives me the thrilling chills!

we are all like astronauts discovering infinity

(pictures from we♥it)

it's a beautiful day
sky falls, you feel like
it's a beautiful day
don't let it get away
(U2: Beautiful Day)

M